Something's Missing

I feel like something is missing. Not in myself, but.... something that will make things make a little more sense. A purpose maybe, or a goal.

It's as if I'm going through these motions and I don't know what it's for. I'm doing things just to do them or because they are expected of me. I don't like this feeling of empty activity.

Maybe it's because I don't have roots in the Northwest. I have friends, who aren't from the area and who are returning to their respective homes. Bu I have no lasting connexions here, and my history is not in the soil--there's nothing to keep me here.

Maybe what's missing is the want to have roots... here??

...

My Heart will always beat in the South--this I know. But maybe I'm looking for something to tie me down here....

Maybe that's what I'm waiting for.

I think the only way that would happen is if I create a family here.  Family, in terms of children with a partner/partners.

I have some ideas about how this can happen... but who knows. Maybe I'll be pleasantly surprised.

Oh wait. The controlfreak in me is not down for surprises.

Hmm, well I've found that Hints are often thrown in my face, so as long as I am,--ahem--vigilant, maybe I won't be caught too off guard and will take the situation with grace.

Maybe.