Grabby Hands

I've been sick this past week, am still sick in fact.  I just finished going through the house wiping down surfaces that get a lot of traffic.  I realise I alone touch a lot of stuff. I wonder if everyone else touches stuff as much as I do....

Questions that I'll never know the answer to.....

Commitment

Why do I baulk at the responsibility of commitment?

Maybe it's my Gemini kicking in.  I've never liked the idea of being held to any type of structure, let alone with rules that aren't my own....

Maybe this is a gin that I need it.  Need more structure and order....

Whatever. I NEED the money, so I'm doing it.

ReFocused

I took a break from writing. I'd written myself out, and my thoughts wer disorganised and I had a great tendency to ramble. Now, after a few weeks, I feel re-energised and ready to document my thoughts in a way that won't confuse me when I look back on these things later on.  :)

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. This past month has been tough, and the past two weeks even moreso.  I feel like I'm getting back on track thugh. Something I think I'm going to start doing is writing down long-term goals, because I have a tendency to focus so much on the next six months that I forget to think about what I'd like to be doing in the next year or two. I feel like my line of thinking has totally reversed from two yeras ago.  I don't know if I should lament that loss....