Slacker

I've been slacking tis Summer on growing my awareness in the areas I hold privilege.  Yes, Tumlr is great to highlight them, but I need to do much more of my own digging.  I find my days are spend being appalled at the ignorance of racist, homophobes, transphobes and the like.  And it makes me wonder who is rolling their eyes at me when it comes to my (lack of) knowledge around issues of immigration, Western privilege, thin privilege, etc.

Late-Night Wanderings Home

Drunken words are sober thoughts; listen carefully.

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Sometimes I really wonder at Chance, and how closely it operates with Fate.  Last night was a collision of the two.  I went to a party with certain expectations, which was probably exactly why they didn't come to pass....  :shrugs:

And something I wasn't expecting to happen was to have a deep conversation about cultural differences in intimate relationships with a white woman, of all people.  Listening to other people's views is always intriguing--sometimes infuriating--and makes me appreciate the fact that a little bit of wine can ease our guard down enough to let it out.

Humans are so interesting.

Migranes

Ever since I was diagnosed with having migraines, I've been keeping a mental tab on when I get them, what's going on and their duration.  I've been getting them more frequently, since starting this job.  No surprise there.  You try spending 35+ hrs/week around a bunch of white cis dude-bros and see what your mental state is like.  /sneer  Anyway.....

This afternoon I had the opp to let out a bit of work-related steam, which proved really healing.  I also asked two burning questions that had been buzzing around my head and --unbeknownst to me--building pressure for the past two weeks.  And it suddenly made sense:  these migraines that I get at work, are all due to a lack of communication.  This means writing it out, singing to a toilet, ranting to P-Newt, or having a conversation to one of my bosses--I have to get it out, or die.

Lies

Sometimes I wonder if my withholding the truth would equate to a lie.  But then, is it really a lie if self-preservation is involved...?