Lately

Have I told you I love you? Have I told you you still mean the world to me...?

I've been thinking a lot lately. Well, perhaps not more than my usual introverted self, but I've been recording my thoughts via legal pad (I need to buy a notebook) and it's really helping me to process and sort shyt out.

One thing that has been on my mind lately is my first trip home. It's going to be my first breather in almost nine months. Far too long for me to be away from the East. I have a few serious things I'm planning to discuss with my natal family, specifically my mother and grandmother and my sister.  I know I'm breaking the unspoken rule of the Watson matriarchy, but I will boldly go where no member of my family has gone before. At least if shyt blows up, I can run back to Olympia and try again around the holidays. Eh.

I'vve also entered and exited a romantic intimate relationship. It was an experience, for shizzle. I've learnt a lot and have much to dwell on to make sure my next serious endeavor is more suited to m needs as well as my partners'. Ah, it's about living and learning.

Because of trhis tizzy of a romance, I've decided to take a step back and simmer for a while. If I learned anything for my former lover, it's that I am emotionally depleted. And Olympia is not a place to gas up. I require sunshine and hella Brown and Black folk to recover fully. I'm going to focus on establishing a firm foundation for my studies and career for now.

I managed to make it through the Winter quarter with my sanity intact, and am now fully embedded in Spring. This should prove for an interesting quarter, especially since I have another self-identified Black person in my seminar. He reckons things will become uncomfortable for some of our cohorts. I say to them "Welcome to my world." :-}

I've been doing so muhch writing lately that I feel I'm rediscovering my voice. My, has it changed. I feel that these numerous blogs have really helped me hone it, and I'm excited to see where I wander, creatively, in the near future.

I've been feeling a lot ore friendly towards individuals. It most likely has something to do with the sun that peeks form behind the clouds as it is wont as we delve deeper into Primavera. maybe i'll even manage a tan....  Yeah, I snickered too.

I have a lot to be thankful for. I need to make note of the reasons more often.