Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change my course of action. Ok, I'm sure many people wish this for whatever reason. But I want to do it to meet people sooner than I would have/did.
Like for example, knowing all of these awesome queer womyn that I do. If I had seen the show 'Dead Like Me' about two years sooner, I would have been in Olympia (theoretically) two years sooner, and I would have met so many more awesome queer womyn.
Yes, that was really vague example, but I could go on and on about this, with multiple examples. Yet at the same time, it feels greedy to wish for more than I already have. Who's to say that I would have been happy to have met individuals 'before my time' so to speak? But who says I wouldn't have been deliriously happy to have done so, or that things wouldn't have developed differently than they have now....?
It's almost like a feeling of loss... but I'm always wishing and imagining different scenarios of how my life could have been instead of living for today. Hmm, it's the faith-seeker in me.... :/
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