Emotion

A year ago, I fell in love with a beautiful woman, C. Even though we did not develop a relationship, she awoke within me a depth of emotion the like of which I had never dreamed possible.

Since this experience, I have felt more intensely than i want to at times. My heart is now the ruler where logic once reigned. This change is not necessarily bad, just taking some getting used to

Let's take for instance, my most recent heartache. I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to spend whole days in bed just thinking of her.  I never before imagined what the power of emotions could do, and it's awesome in that one person can elicit such depth and breadth of emotional responses. Yes, it's sucky because I'm the one lying on my living room floor writing this out so that maybe I can find some solace in my dreams this night. But it's also so empowering to know that I have the capacity to feel so much.

One day, this loss and lamentation will be in my past, but I hope I never forget what it was like to be so moved by this one beautiful individual.