Thinking

I think that if I thought about the things I really need to think about... the Despair would consume me. There's so much much pain wrapped up in these things that I don't allow myself to think about... I feel as if a shadow waits on the edge of my Consciousness....

It's frightening to think about the things I don't allow myself to think about because I know things will only get worse the longer I wait and no, they won't resolve on their own, and no, I don't think I'll ever really be ready to face them and yes, it will Hurt... but my Soul will never know Peace until I have tried.

Ok.  Back to not thinking about things I don't allow myself to think about.